The Performance Review
—an excerpt from The Manifesto
The Performance Review
At some point, healing starts to feel like a full-time job.
You measure your progress in emotional spreadsheets.
You log your triggers like expense reports.
You start drafting self-improvement goals that no one asked for.
Every week becomes a meeting between who you were and who you are trying to be. You show up, take notes, smile politely while your inner critic leads the presentation. The slides are brutal. The agenda never ends.
Eventually, you realize you have been trying to earn a promotion from your own pain. You want recognition for efficiency. You want someone to tell you that you have done enough grieving, enough learning, enough reframing. You want closure to arrive in a memo with bullet points.
But there is no HR department for the soul.
There is no clean quarterly report that proves your healing is ahead of schedule.
You just keep showing up to the same meeting with slightly better posture.
The truth is, progress does not always look like growth. Sometimes it looks like restraint. Sometimes it looks like saying less. Sometimes it looks like the courage to leave the report unfinished.
Eventually, the only promotion left is honesty.
Admitting exhaustion is the only honest KPI.
Time to put in for some vacation days.
Field Note: The Empirical Soul
Hypothesis: emotions behave like weather… predictable only in hindsight.
Method: observation without interference.
Result: grief, recurring at irregular intervals; joy measurable in seconds.
Additional Data: subject continues despite inconclusive results.
No HR department for the soul.
But you may reimburse the caffeine budget.
Consider it a discretionary line item.




This made total sense to me.
Made me smile, I know exactly what you mean 😂